I admit it, I was kind of in and out of a funk for awhile. That's mostly the reason for my lack of writing over the past several months. (That + 3 boys in the house) I was constantly feeling worn out, busy-ness was my top excuse for pushing my time with God down to the bottom of my priority list. And when I'm away from Him I become really apathetic. You would think that I would have learned by now. Which is why I'm hoping to start writing here more. This is my journal, my little reminders + encouragements to self (+ whoever happens to stop by too).
Finally it came time to shake the dust off and get back on my feet. I can't bring glory to God by being run down all the time. That's why I'm here, to know Him + make Him known right? So I ran home and was welcomed back with open arms. I'll never understand why God is so good to me. I have felt so much joy in the past couple of weeks and seen some pretty miraculous things happen. I'm also realizing that the more time I spend with Him, the more I start to genuinely care about other people. Not just love them in my head, but really love them like He does. Not just old,
{My prayer for today}
This morning I was reading the parable of the sower in Matthew 13. I read the part about the seed on the stony places, who hears the word + receives it, but it doesn't last because there's no root. That's been me. Then I read about the seed among the thorns who hears the word, but the desires of the world choke the word and he remains unfruitful. That's been me too. Finally it talks about the seed on the good ground who hears the word and understands it and bears lots of fruit. I really want to be this one. Jesus says several times when he's telling these stories, "he who has ears to hear, let him hear!" When I read that I just want to shout, "God let me hear it + get it!" I want to bear fruit and I know that the only way that's going to happen is if I stay close to Him.{Abide in me, and I in you, as the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you unless you abide in me.}
Jesus said apart from me you can do nothing. I don't want to be apart from Him again. You can't know Him without spending that alone time with Him. So I want to make the decision every morning to know my savior.
